I have always enjoyed reading but, like every other parent cleaning in pajamas while waiting for the call to jump up and make that next peanut butter and jelly, I have learned that my time is limited. Very limited. Between working full time and coming home to my two kiddos and two pups, I am noticing my reading time has been chucked out the window. Or rather, it has been dumped down the diaper pail. My current challenge: Make it to page 10 of “My Grandfather’s Blessings” by Rachel Naomi Remen, M.D. by the end of the month. You read that right – page 10, end of month. Also notice I said “challenge” and not “goal”. My goal is to complete the book someday. The challenge is actually making it to page 10. Then 20. And so on.
Don’t get me wrong, I also love my children and am absolutely enamored with my life. But let’s get real. When we chose to have kids I am pretty sure we all imagined we would be masters of order. Completely in-control baby and toddler whisperers who would sit back for an hour of uninterrupted reading and relaxation time since the kids are on the same nap schedule and they actually nap. At least, that is how it was going to work in my head. The “ha-ha, joke is on you” set in a little later as my beloved book time became filled with important parenthood lessons like how-to-cook-with-one-arm, learn-about-every-super-hero-possibly-known-to-man, and always-have-the-clean-diaper-ready-to-go. What did I do before these kiddos existed? And did I really dedicate that much time to reading? I have no idea. Parenthood seems to have erased all memories of the time before kids for me. I now use that extra space to worry and wonder. Did I pack extra diapers? Where are the snacks? Should we pay the $45 to ship Tunnah-Punnah the teddybear home from the hotel now or pay for therapy later on? And, do we still have books not related to fairy tales or dinosaurs going to school in this house? The answer: YES! And I have rediscovered them. Now, I just need to rediscover what it is like to sit and read more than a few paragraphs at a time.
In the little time I have had to flip through and read a few pages of this book, I have gathered the grandfather was a very wise and loving man. I am not asking to replace any of my kid’s time with reading. I realize it is good to have my own time now and then, and when I get it I will fill it with the goodness of books. If you happen to read this book before I do, please feel free to give me a summary. It may be a while before I get to the end. I just want to get to page 10 first.
(I am in no way affiliated with the book or author other than the book is sitting on my table waiting to be read.)